Who am i?

Well i just had a talk yesterday night, don't really know is it a talk cause mostly is one way. People telling me stuff. I am really trying my best to open up. The talk make me realize that i have hide myself true feelings and true self to a point i myself don't even know who i am. All along i have been taking the image the people around want me to be. Due to all this i have hide myself so deep underneath, that will take me quite a while to uncover myself. I will do it! cause if i myself don't do it no one can help me. I want to come out of the self denial state. But after yesterday session i really wonder if God's promise to me is to be an eagle that will soar even when it storm? Now i have to first find out who am i before i can fulfill God's promise.

Note: I will do my best!Help me if i fall! Thank for being harsh with me. Though i know i don't like it, but i need it.

Saying don't help much. Firstly i can do is to try to be responsible for my own life, respect the people around me. And do the things i am suppose to do. I will try my best! I don't want to let anyone down anymore. It suddenly struck me when i was writing this post on why should Jesus die for me. Well Jesus indeed suffered a great deal for me, but if i don't have a heart of repentance Jesus will die for nothing. I guess it only the true heart of repentance then i will be able to feel the full measure of God' love for me on the cross.
I will just pray that God You will come and bring my back to the cross. Show me what You went thru, Allow me to feel the love You had for me and not let me be lack of it. God i pray that you will continue to work in my life, not just on the surface work deep into the depths. As i slowly learn to open up, help me to find out who i am really.