what is wrong?

I wondering what is wrong? Why am I feeling the way I am feeling? Why do I feel strange? Why do I feel everything is so not for me? Issit that I am too sensitive? Or issit I am thinking too much. I wish, I hope, I want to. Don't wanna see, don't wanna know. What is the point? Is there any point? No point. I dun feel you are with me. Physically? Mentally? Emotionally? Just dun tell me what you think will make me feel better. I don't need it. I am sorry. I am just full of question n uncertain question. Runaway? Go home? Be on my own?

Stone Life?

Just had a idea that i am just a mere unprocessed stone, a stone with many rough and sharp edge. But yet God is still willing to pick me up to sand me and polish me till i shine, even when at time my edge cut and hurt Him deep, but He never give up or forsake me cuz i hurt Him. The sanding process is hurting for me. I guess i got alot of areas to be sand off. Well the sanding process, i believe is not fun for either God or me, but it is a requirement for me to be sand before God can polish me to shine for Him. Just imagine with me a diamond that is not process properly compared to a well process diamond which will be brighter and much more glamorous. Day by day i am being sanded, hopefully i will be able to last till the day i shine brightly.