WOZ World of ZappyZach

what is wrong?

2008-12-27T23:36:00.003+08:00

I wondering what is wrong? Why am I feeling the way I am feeling? Why do I feel strange? Why do I feel everything is so not for me? Issit that I am too sensitive? Or issit I am thinking too much. I wish, I hope, I want to. Don't wanna see, don't wanna know. What is the point? Is there any point? No point. I dun feel you are with me. Physically? Mentally? Emotionally? Just dun tell me what you think will make me feel better. I don't need it. I am sorry. I am just full of question n uncertain question. Runaway? Go home? Be on my own?

Stone Life?

2008-12-09T17:56:00.002+08:00

Just had a idea that i am just a mere unprocessed stone, a stone with many rough and sharp edge. But yet God is still willing to pick me up to sand me and polish me till i shine, even when at time my edge cut and hurt Him deep, but He never give up or forsake me cuz i hurt Him. The sanding process is hurting for me. I guess i got alot of areas to be sand off. Well the sanding process, i believe is not fun for either God or me, but it is a requirement for me to be sand before God can polish me to shine for Him. Just imagine with me a diamond that is not process properly compared to a well process diamond which will be brighter and much more glamorous. Day by day i am being sanded, hopefully i will be able to last till the day i shine brightly.

Happy 23rd bday

2008-09-24T10:35:00.002+08:00

1yr has pass since my baptism. Time to do some personal reflection, what has happen for this past year. Well i can this past year has been more of spring cleaning of my personal being. Well let me see this year? stepping into the working world, uncertain of my direction and path and just step into the unknown. But so far work has been fun, working with interesting colleague, attending courses, playing with kids, working with student, planning for a retreat for the staff even though i had only join the company for less then like 1 yr, i am still a newbie heeee, thank everyone for showing me the ropes. Personal life, Alot have been reveal this year, still reading the book wild at heart, gotten a better understanding on how come guys including me behave the way we behave, is it due to past hurt? discouragement? lost of parent? loneliness? can be alot of reason that result in our behave, well i am still in the process of finding the real reasons behind who i am now, and going forward from knowing what are the real reason i need to cut that curse and move on to who God want me to be. I know that i am weak, i am unstable, but i will not give up trying, the true champion never stop trying no matter how long it takes me i will run the race. i want to finish the race as a true champion, i know talk is cheap, action do prove what i said, have also been looking thru the fruits of the spirit, realise that i totally fail at the fruit of the spirit something i really need to work on. i think i will start with patience.
all i can say is this year's bday feel different from the previous 22 years. Thanks for making my bday special even though still haven't reach it. Finally i can feel that i have a family to celebrate with me. :)

rubik cube!

2008-09-11T15:31:00.003+08:00

hihi! i just got my very own rubik cube i got both the 2 by 2 and the 3 by 3 one, see picture below

2 by 2 rubik cube which i am working on now

3 by 3 one i have yet to open it up.

The reason why i got these is i find it quite interesting as i see the kids all playing with these things. so i decided to give it a try :)
The rubik cube i still trying to solve the whole thing, thinking it would be easy, but nooooo! not as easy as i imagine! :( the most i only manage to solve three face , i think i need some one to teach me! Anyone wants to teach me?

Today was phonetic lesson 1, damn funny the teacher with accent similar to the broadcaster in bbc radio!!! She was an old lady, and she can speak many language. 3/4 of the time i was like eeeee, aaaaaa, oooooo, ddddddddddeeeeeeeeeeee, kkkkkkkkkkk, zzzzzzz, and when our teacher point out the mistake commonly made by people, we find it interesting, to look out for people's accent like example thank you, some people say thank cute la, wahahaha so funny. had a great time looking forward to the next session :)

Surrender?

2008-09-10T15:54:00.003+08:00

things had been bz bz bz lately, just got back from staff advance last week. Got to meet alot of people over at the staff advance. i was part of the planning committee and also one of the bus i/c and also the sound and photographer, sound like i got alot to do. haha, well nothing much actually, enjoyed myself, lately i have been asking myself the qn am i the third party? Should i be the one tt let go? Am i doing all this just for her sake? well all i know is that i am doing all this because i don't wanna be how i use to be like. i am doing it for myself, it is hard. very hard. Will i end up really being with you, i dun noe? All i know is even if you leave me i will continue to do the thing i know is going to help me change, i am changing not for your sake or what. I am changing for God's glory and i want to let people see God thru my life. It is really going to be hard. During the advance i was reminded once again that if i only believe in Him then only can i soar like an eagle, it is the same as i read today's matt it keep repeating believe in me and by your faith. Saying is cheap, doing is hard. I want to change! i realize it has been very long since i spend time with God. in order for me really to have God being close to me i need to really die to me own desire, and let His will be done. I admit it is hard to follow but i will do it! the process is not going to be overnight or in 1 mth, might not even be a yr. Are you really ready to walk this journey with me? what am i writing???
There is something i wish to tell you personally.

spring cleaning

2008-08-29T16:31:00.003+08:00

Woah!!! been long since i blog, well had been busy busy busy for the past weeks with work, and buying of furniture. Last sun went to ikea after service and cell to get my bed, Thank lennel for the help at ikea, if not i will be totally lost, and also my baby for the help in some decision making. Then come monday! went to comcentre to buy the long awaited iphone! didn't buy one but two, 1 black 1 white, Got the white one for von. :) reach the place around 630pm by the time it was my turn for the q it was like 915pm... i waited for like..... eternity wahahaha.... i skipped dinner just to go q up for the phone. Tuesday! furniture IN!!! sianz, got to clear my stuff, mop the floor sweep the floor, dust flying all over the place... the best part i forgot tt i dun have a power drill to help me screw all the screw. so i got to use my strength to screw all the screw to fix all the furniture together. :( so tiring... but it was rewarding as by around 1030 i finally got my table and my queen size bed fix!!!! yeah!!!! then come the next task to d/l app and setting up of the iphones, transfering the phonebook and stuff, which took me like another 2 hr. then i doze off at my table instead of on my bed... :'(
Wed was a firing day at work!!! kena fired time and time by my boss. but it is ok, after work went to town to meet von and jodi and children, for dinner and buying the iphone case.:) and supper with the whole family. i enjoyed myself although i was quite tired from everything. treated everyone for dinner. :)
Well thur i was sick, but went back to office to collect some stuff and bring home to do....
And come the FRIDAY!!!! weekend is here, was at the counselling course in the morning, back in the office i am all alone!!! the office is mine! wahahaha. and here i am trying to fight the ZZZZ monster while typing this entry... someone save me.... arhhhhhh!!!! ZZZZzzzzz......

johari window

2008-08-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

hi peeps, below is a link to my johari window, do help me do it if possible thank!!!

http://kevan.org/johari?view=zappy+zach

wish list

2008-08-13T10:48:00.004+08:00

promotion package but i dun need the bootie

the fins i wan

The long sleeve shirt i can use in warm water

Mask!!!

Snorkel?

Wetsuit for my night dive or wreck

hi peeps, it is the time of the year again... Wishlist for bday!!! heee

love

2008-08-06T15:37:00.001+08:00

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

I have multiple love languages!

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	8
Words of Affirmation:	8
Physical Touch:	8
Receiving Gifts:	3
Acts of Service:	3

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

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crossroad

2008-08-06T11:01:00.002+08:00

Standing at the spiritual crossroad! Here i am God standing at the crossroad yet again. It is the decision of unmasking myself to the people around me, being and growing to be a man or continue living in self denial. Choosing the way of self denial will be a much path to take as i am very used to it since young. All i have to do is to continue with what i have been doing. Choosing to unmask myself will lead me into a unknown path, where i don't really know what can i do, or what will happen. I remember a friend told me if i know what to do or what can happen i will be Jesus. Taking this path mean i got to submit my life to God by taking up the cross and dying to self each and everyday. i really don't know if i got the strength walk this path of light, i may fall but God i trust that You will be there to catch me even before i fall. I have been at this cross road for quite awhile, i can't simply stand still and don't make any decision and only i can make this decision for myself. Time wait for no man, open doors will close too. Dear all that is reading this entry, my decision is that i will choose to walk the path of light, unmasking myself and learn to be a man. I need help. I was reminded about this song, who am i, that You are mindful of me. Who am i really? All i can say is i am the Prince of God! And a prince should live as a Prince! and behave like one! I want to the best prince of God for the princess God is preparing for me at this moment!

i am back!

2008-07-31T10:51:00.002+08:00

Where shall i start off? Maybe i shall start off with the train ride! Wheeee! Never took train to go oversea before. So fun!!! i would say nothing fun about it. Maybe just because first time. The best part was after we board the train, i ask my sister if she got motion sickness pills. she said no!!! to my horror!!!! come on imagine it with me for those cannot take the wave on a small boat!!! hahaha. The train ride was 14 hrs cause the train stop at certain station for a long time. Lucky my sister bought the one with beds. And i took the upper deck. i felt like i was in a sardine can. ahahha, I also brought along the tigger in my car to travel with me. Picture will be out soon. so many pic to upload. :) When we reach the train station over at malaysia to my amaze it was called tanah merah for a while i tot i was going expo! hee. took a 1 hr cab jounery to the ferry terminal. On the trip saw cows just cross the road like nobody's issue.haha. fun fun fun! had prata at the ferry terminal there. anyway everything else my sister is paying for it. Heee. i just pay for diving. So fortunate!! nothing much about the boat ride. reach perhentian, first thing we saw was a drowning case, some old lady was found drowning off shore. And the people was trying to perform cpr, and they send the lady off to main land using speed boat. But the lady didn't make it. :(. check in to our room. SEA VIEW!!!! shoik!!!! rot abit in the room then went over to the dive shop. Dive dive dive dive!!! was being introduce to all the staff there! My instructor cum buddy Joe!!! hee forgot to take picture with him! started diving soon after! first dive was abit rusty! hee. saw alot of fishes!! was again raid by schools of fish like the previous trip. :( fishes just dun like me. hahaha, but i saw many many stuff there unlike aur! i also did night dive and wreck dive. Things i saw: school of squids, octopus, huge ass pufferfish(size of my thigh) school of snapper, bamboo shark, blue spot sting ray, jelly fish, many many nudi branch, huge clam, angel fish, shrimps crab. and many more, picture will be up soon, cuz everything is in my sis cam. hee. the sad part on the last day i was having sea sick. :((( The place is really a nice place, everyone there is friendly, seem like a big family. :) Took some time out to think about stuff. I think i will go back there every year. :) had a rough plan of my future. I want to take up psychology next year. The course should be ard 4 yr. need to go find out more about different school. thinking if i should take pt time? eventually i want to take up children psychology! :) Even tot of when i wanna get married, it will be ard 2 yr after i grad! hee. About other stuff i have on hand now. i need to solve it one by one. i will do my best to fulfill my responsibility. :)

Doing some soul searching

2008-07-24T16:48:00.003+08:00

Well guys, i really have no idea what i wanted to type here. Anyway i will be off for a short get away this weekend to perhentian for diving, at the same time do some soul and heart searching. :) hoping that i will come back with a decision, or at least a clearer picture of stuff.
Well these few days i have be trying to catch up at work, meeting dateline and stuff. still recovering from muscle fatigue. well i can say i really want to see how far can i go. How much can i achieve? But why am i doing all this? Pride? Honour? Don't want to lose? i really don't know. Still remember during my army days in NDU the motto was "Nothing Stand in Our Way" indeed at that point of time nothing really stand in my way. Cause as a team we help each other. But now back at CV life will i be able to raise up and say nothing will stand in my way? Someone once told me that i crave respect. Yes i do admit i crave respect, who don't want to be respected? He also told me i should start with children first before moving on to gain respect from adults. If i can't even gain respect properly from children what give me the right to be respected.
I know i have been irresponsible, my word hold no weight at all, i am trying to do it right this time round. I really don't know what it takes, but i will do it. Guess i tend to overpromise people. It is not good for me or for the people around me. I need to know my limitation of help i can give to people. That is a saying i guess: "if i can't help myself, how can i help others" i think i first need to be able to help myself up before i help others.
I love you and i will miss you when i am gone.
Oh ya, i watch the dark knight yesterday night, the show was GOODD
4.5 out of 5, the 0.5 was due to the bloody seat in the theatre.
During the show joker said something that i find it is very true, he said something like when that is a plan no one panic, but when we act out of the plan everyone panic. I find it is very true in the singapore culture, When things go according to plan no one will make noise, but when things go out of plan everyone in the country make noise.
Why look so serious? Let me put a smile on your face! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Combine staff worship

2008-07-22T11:36:00.002+08:00

Romans 7:14-25
14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.

well i don't know why but this passage speak to me alot. Maybe it is the answer that i was looking for! The question why must God die for me. There are a few reasons why i think God die for me, one of it is God love me and He came to die for my sins, secondly, God die for me so i am able to die to self, lastly He die to really set me free from sins. Like what paul said here on verse 24 "What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?" It was Jesus who did it, Jesus die so that we can be save from our body of death.
Like what the speaker say is true, By our own will and might will only stop us from sinning to a certain point, when we go tired we will fall again. We need a higher commitment or law. Speaker say but starting our daily life devoting it to God and surrendering everything to God will prevent us from sinning. not just prevent i guess, i feel but dying to self and living in God purpose will make us not want to sin anymore. so i guess i want to start everyday of my life surrendering it to God and telling Him may His will be done and not my will.
God i give you my life, i surrender everything i have into your hands. May your will be done.
At the same time i guess i want to say that perfect love cast out all fear, i yearn for that perfect love to be given to me one day!

A WAH weekend!!!

2008-07-21T17:12:00.003+08:00

Had a birthday party to attend on friday night, it was jamie's 21st bday chalet at sentosa. It feel good to meet up with some old friends from poly. But not much happen that night other then the sabo part where some got wet. hahaha. This time round the cake wasn't quite impactful but the pool was! haha, anyway got a new name for sabotaur call peng you!!! means friends!!! It feel good to just lame with friends and do crap with friends. Being myself is good! just playing doing all sort of rubbish is part of my nature i guess, in this period of time where i search for my true identity, i am slowly discovering myself in ways i never know. :) i didn't know i always put others b4 myself. Well anyway i stay over for the weekend! cuz i was drinking on the sat night, ya so can't drive! sunday was a relax day, went for suntanning, swimming at the pool. i went out to suntec for lunch and watch abit of the NDP. Then went back to the chalet, had bbq for a while only then it rain, and it was freaking cold. ha, remind me of aur when the thunderstorm came! haha, anyway i am getting along well with stuff, still learning though it is hard, but i will have to do it to the best of my ability. Like yesterday sermons say do it with all your heart! :) i will give it my best even if i don't know what will be the end result, cuz everything i do, i want to do it for God and not for man to see, i want to seek approval from God and not from man alone. Though at times i may feel that i don't wish to do things but i will try to do it to my best! that is the least i can offer. Time to get back to work.

busy week

2008-07-17T19:15:00.002+08:00

yoz peepz, in case if any of you wonder why i haven't been blogging is because i had a busy week this week at work. I need to bring work home to do, and at the present moment i am still in the office working my ass off. hahaha, and to top it off my car is still in the car park. woahhhh, Anyway i went for the magicbox yesterday night, it was a good show. i am still very amaze by the part where the car was on the stage. It is a freaking car!!! haha, i enjoy myself over the past few days. Choosing to be happy about life,today i just gave away my magic box ticket, cause i need to rush work and i was too sick to go also. Have been sleeping late this whole week. I guess i had the crappiest week of work, but i am still happy. Well being happy is about the thinking first ba, if i choose to be happy i guess i will be happy. And i am really happy, not pretending to be someone else. I love it! i am still trying my best! support me ok? hee. need to get back to work le. byeeee

planned yet unplan weekend

2008-07-14T15:35:00.003+08:00

Well, let me start off with sat. Well the guys are suppose to go to the zoo on sat morning, guess what happen, it got cancel!!! hahaha reason being all of us woke up late so we decided to make do with plan b which is rock band, hahaha!!! but it got cancelled too reason being there was a lot of mis communication between everyone. The problem with all working class people, WE NEED THE REST ON WEEKEND MORNING!!! hahaha, Well i got kinda piss so i went ahead with my own stuff. I went for a ordinary haircut which turns out to be a expensive one, it cost me 115 buck cause i dye my hair!!! Funky!!!hahaha after which after the hair cut, The we Guys decided on watching a show, at 1st i thought everything is going to happen all over again, end we will end up cancelling the show, but this time round we became more decisive about it and just went ahead. Was watching hancock at marina shopping centre, where we caught part of the ndp 2008 :) some of us say that the ndp has become a kite show. haha. well personal preferances, anyway the show hancock was quite dumb at certain point. Nothing much about the movie just find it is quite dumb at certain point. Ended the night with drinking tea with the guys at TCC. after which i went on alone to some multi storey carpark to just gaze at stars and enjoy the night breeze. felt very calm and peace. To my amaze multi storey carpark can be one of the nicest place to gaze upon the stars. :)

Then come sun!!! Barnabas and service, nothing much happen, slept during first part of service, woke up when ps melyvn was talking abt the second and third point. Had a fun cell group, it feel good to be back together as one, hahaha. Ps william talk about having the good life during cell. Well i admit my life is not good enough, though i have everything, car, parents, job, friends. I find that i am not happy. But i am choosing to be happy with everything i have, i learning to give thank for everything that happen. Although things in the bible, the things God want us to do is really asking us to go beyond human understanding in order to achieve. I am willing to try my best to just go by faith and walk with God, not just walk with Him but walk close with Him. After cell went over to dennis place to surpise him, but he don't look a least bit of surpise. hahaha. happy birthday dennis! Yet again i had a wonderful evening yesterday. I enjoyed myself! I am truly happy about things. It is very true when i just let go, and by just simply believe God, i will feel much relieve!!!

Food and unknown surpise

2008-07-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

Well, was too lazy to blog when i reach home on thur, i was busy doing other stuff after i reach home from a buffet treat from vivien. It is for the logistic and misc people from the kids camp. We had a great time at the buffet though only 4 of us were there, joe, alvin , vivien and me. We spend time talking about the next dive, our past diving trip, what happen, what we did underwater. We also talk about our secondary school life, then all of us admit that we were somehow ah bengs and ah lians back then. We also talk about funny stuff that happen back in secondary school, like playing prank on people, fighting, girls changing in the class and stuff. Well it was quite a crappy night.

Then come friday, The WEEKENDS IS HERE!!! suppose to go for a movie with yinghan they all end up being cancel. Work today was quite fun, i was ask to do 4 seperate things at the some time, get a story book from the library, get change to my skit attire, gather the kids, set up the room. Well though i didn't do all 4 things at the same time but i did manage to finish everything fast. Well after work was the boring part, it is friday night and i got nothing on, boohoo... then carolyn just ask if i going down to surpise delia for her birthday so i guess i got nothing much on then i just went ahead, We went down to marina square to meet sara and melvin for dinner and some shopping, when end up i got so tempted by the blooding cool clock at marina square and the freaky mahjong set. ArGHH!!! Forget about the clock and mahjong, then we went over to dennis and delia place to hide before they got back.

We waited with the rest until like 1045 then delia came back, when dennis suppose to call us but he forgot, all of us got to rush to the room but we didn't have enough time so we cramp ourself just by her bedroom door. sqeezing each other to the wall, at that point of time i really felt what it meant but drive up the wall. hahaha, but i had a fun thur and fri. :)

A different day at work!!!

2008-07-10T18:02:00.002+08:00

Well today at work i am different or at least i feel different. Not chatting on msn most of the time, not checking out on blogs, or even slack infront of the computer. I will continue to be like this, continue to work hard. Take ownership of my own work, take pride in the things i do. Another thing, today my boss gave me new curricular to work on. To my amaze(Wondering if it is timing or what) The topics are: respect other, creativity use of time, peer pressure, communications and bullying. Well i can relate myself to all of these topic. And i am known as the adventure guy in the department now. So now must think think of new stuff. hahaha, if you all wondering i still so guai in the office now, because i just waiting for time to pass b4 i go for my buffet treat at city hall. about time to ciao le. need to go grab a pretty notebook, pen, diary and maybe an organizer. :) hope i will have a good time at the bookshop. :) Due to the stupid weather this morning, i was caught in the rain. now i think i am down with flu, but i will be fine. i am a healthy boy.

Who am i?

2008-07-10T09:30:00.000+08:00

Well i just had a talk yesterday night, don't really know is it a talk cause mostly is one way. People telling me stuff. I am really trying my best to open up. The talk make me realize that i have hide myself true feelings and true self to a point i myself don't even know who i am. All along i have been taking the image the people around want me to be. Due to all this i have hide myself so deep underneath, that will take me quite a while to uncover myself. I will do it! cause if i myself don't do it no one can help me. I want to come out of the self denial state. But after yesterday session i really wonder if God's promise to me is to be an eagle that will soar even when it storm? Now i have to first find out who am i before i can fulfill God's promise.

Note: I will do my best!Help me if i fall! Thank for being harsh with me. Though i know i don't like it, but i need it.

Saying don't help much. Firstly i can do is to try to be responsible for my own life, respect the people around me. And do the things i am suppose to do. I will try my best! I don't want to let anyone down anymore. It suddenly struck me when i was writing this post on why should Jesus die for me. Well Jesus indeed suffered a great deal for me, but if i don't have a heart of repentance Jesus will die for nothing. I guess it only the true heart of repentance then i will be able to feel the full measure of God' love for me on the cross.
I will just pray that God You will come and bring my back to the cross. Show me what You went thru, Allow me to feel the love You had for me and not let me be lack of it. God i pray that you will continue to work in my life, not just on the surface work deep into the depths. As i slowly learn to open up, help me to find out who i am really.

Looking on the brighter side of life :)

2008-07-08T09:51:00.001+08:00

Well things has been moving to toward the better side i suppose, or at least i feel that way, I admit that i am weak and i need help from God, i need His love, assurance too. I am starting to look at things from another view, taking things from a better side, choosing to trust God for every thing that has happen is to build me stronger. As i promise that i will try to blog everyday to update everyone of what is happening, just to inform everyone that i am trying to let God handle stuff and trust in Him. It might be hard, but i want to try.

Dear daddy, i pray to You that you will help us to go thru this period of time not by our own might, but it is by Your grace and power. I pray that you will guard our heart from deceiving us thru what the evil do. In Your name i rebuke the evil one, he has no say in everything that happen, and we will choose to praise You in everything. God help us. Teach us and not let us go. Amen!

The Social Mandate

2008-07-07T13:10:00.000+08:00

This week's topic for the 40 days fast is able the Master plan. And the passage is taken from Exodus 19, Deut 15, Deut 24. So far since yesterday, the prayer guide have been talking about helping the poor among us. What does the word "poor" means?

poor
adj. poor·er, poor·est

1. Having little or no wealth and few or no possessions.
2. Lacking in a specified resource or quality: an area poor in timber and coal; a diet poor in calcium.
3. Not adequate in quality; inferior: a poor performance.
4.
1. Lacking in value; insufficient: poor wages.
2. Lacking in quantity: poor attendance.
5. Lacking fertility: poor soil.
6. Undernourished; lean.
7. Humble: a poor spirit.
8. Eliciting or deserving pity; pitiable: couldn't rescue the poor fellow.

To us many when the word poor come to us it alway remind us of material stuff like money, clothes, food, etc...
But today God showed me a different meaning of poor, i bet most of you know what i saying. God showed me spiritually poor, emotionally poor. Well i guess when God commanded us to help the poor He is not just refering to the people that has no money or no food instead He was telling us to even help those that are spiritually poor or emotionally poor. God is telling us to pour out our love towards them and help them.
In a way God is alway telling us the trick on how He will choose to bless us, When we help others according to God command God will surely bless us richly and mighty.
God also remind me it is not by mere human understanding that when we pour out our everything God will give us more or to receive is to give more. God just simply told me to just trust Him and He will show me His awesome power.

Dear Dad, i pray to you that i am able to not just help those people that have no money but also those broken hearted or spiritually poor people around me. It is Your will that i am going thru all this, I know all You wanted is for me to grow stronger and to be able to soar higher. I thank You Dad. I also pray that you will guide us in this period of time, as we come to seek Your will in our life, Your purpose of us being in each other life. May You just watch over us. Amen!

Timely Weekend

2008-07-07T12:35:00.000+08:00

Well, i had a great time last weekend, though it was a like a normal one. Maybe it is just that i enjoyed the company i had and the things we do. On Sat i was out with ps william , joe and mike's cell we spend the night over at east coast. Had a good time just spending time building the community. Ps william made me realise that i was never alone, it was just a matter or how i view it, i am quite bless actually as i am always with in a community. All i got to do is to look at it differently. I am starting to enjoy the new idea of just learning how to build on the guys community. It is actually more fun then just building the girls community, all i got to do is just to put in extra effort in doing it. :)

Then come sun service, i was dozing off away, i woke up just in time for the more important part of the sermon, it came quite timely, it reminded me that all the fears, shame, rejection and negative stuff wasn't not God's intention for me. It was due to the fall of man. I believe that God love me. And everything that is happening to me is to build me stronger for His glory. Like the story of the eagle that the speaker talks about. With every fall it is to prepare us for something greater, and one day we will eventually soar like eagle not matter what hit us.

Things had been better lately, i just choose to trust in God. Walk in His walk, i am weak but i know God is strong and He is able to catch me when i fall. I want to do what best for us, it will be hard in the start but i am very sure God will bring us thru it when we just focus on Him.

The Great Reality

2008-07-04T11:53:00.000+08:00

Isaiah 58:6-9

6-9"This is the kind of fast day I'm after:
to break the chains of injustice,
get rid of exploitation in the workplace,
free the oppressed,
cancel debts.
What I'm interested in seeing you do is:
sharing your food with the hungry,
inviting the homeless poor into your homes,
putting clothes on the shivering ill-clad,
being available to your own families.
Do this and the lights will turn on,
and your lives will turn around at once.
Your righteousness will pave your way.
The God of glory will secure your passage.
Then when you pray, God will answer.
You'll call out for help and I'll say, 'Here I am.'

Well today's one is quite interesting, telling us what a true fasting is. Fasting is to abstain from something, but not for ourself, it is to abstain from things that bring us away from the love of God. It also involve helping those that is need. When we do all this God we be with us and not just that He will go before us, when we cry out to Him he will listen and be there for us.

Dear Father, i pray for a genuine heart transformation that when i serve other i will be truly happy about it and not serve for the sake of serving. Dear God i pray that you give me a deeper in the work that i am doing. I also pray that my life will not stumble my fellow brothers or sister anymore. Lord help me to change, i want to do the things i said. I also pray that when God bless me i will freely share it with the people around me. Dear God help me. I am trying to change from within, So please help me, for i am weak bless me with your strength and power.

i don't know how to name this entry

2008-07-04T11:03:00.000+08:00

well... i seriously don't know how to start off this entry, but i just want to say, i will still trust in you no matter of what had happen. It is hard for me to trust people to this extent, i am trying. let's jia you together, work toward victory. All i can say here is alot of things happen, But i will choose to give thank though i feel it is hard. Well today i went down to peitong primary for assembly talk, was quite a good one, the kids sang the song pass it on together, it was so beautiful it just remind me how God enjoy our worship onto Him, we are like little children to Him. I pray that i am able to sing unto Him no matter what i am going through.

The Great Farce

2008-07-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

farce
Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, verb, farced, farc·ing.
–noun
1. a light, humorous play in which the plot depends upon a skillfully exploited situation rather than upon the development of character.
2. humor of the type displayed in such works.
3. foolish show; mockery; a ridiculous sham.
4. Cookery. forcemeat.
–verb (used with object)
5. to season (a speech or composition), esp. with witty material.
6. Obsolete. to stuff; cram.

Isaiah 58:3-5
3-5"Well, here's why:

"The bottom line on your 'fast days' is profit.
You drive your employees much too hard.
You fast, but at the same time you bicker and fight.
You fast, but you swing a mean fist.
The kind of fasting you do
won't get your prayers off the ground.
Do you think this is the kind of fast day I'm after:
a day to show off humility?
To put on a pious long face
and parade around solemnly in black?
Do you call that fasting,
a fast day that I, God, would like?

Well for me so far i guess everything come quite timely as according to what i am going thru. Yes i admit i did put up a show for everyone around me. Like what was written, when i fast but i still do other things that is not pleasing to God's eyes. But in this season of fasting again, i sincerely yearn to find God, and ask God to do a deeper work in my heart. I don't want to fast because that i am told to do so, i want to do it because i want to please God.

Dear Father, i pray that during this period of fasting for me, may my fasting be pleasing before You, if there is anything i need to work on please show me more and guide me to success. Teach me the true meaning of love. Like what you have said in 1 tim 1:5 "The whole point of what we're urging is simply love—love uncontaminated by self-interest and counterfeit faith, a life open to God." Let my life be an open and transparent one before You and man. Teach me how to walk a blameless life, guide me. I am weak but You are strong God. I cry out for your help.

my small little chat

2008-07-03T10:58:00.000+08:00

Well, i was late again for work today. Haiz!!! Seriously i need to wake on that. That is to my own discipline. Today as i was preparing to go to work, i heard God asking me how did i realize what or who i want in life? Why do love have to slip pass me before i realize it is going to be gone? I simply just reply for the first time in my life i was so clear on my decision. I just simply reply, at first i find it hard to trust and love anyone, but the love was like God unfailing love, i don't wish to lose that love. In the same way also for the love of God. It was that kind of unfailing love towards me that broke the wall between me and the people around. When i was on the way to work, i tune in to my favorite radio cause my thumbdrive is not with me. But i felt that the songs and the things they talk on air was quite divine. The song i heard was "i will survive" well it is not about the lyrics that matter, it was the title reminding me that i will survive no matter how hard it get, and also the saying "When the going get tough only the tough get going". And the Djs talk about self prophetizing(I don't know how to spell) I just told myself if i keep saying i gonna lose something i guess i will end up losing it, but if i just have the confidence in God that nothing will go wrong anymore, things will be different. I will be able to trust my love one knowing that my assurance come from God and not from human alone. I want to take this step. Help me!

Well when i arrive at work, i had a talk with my boss. She ask if i am ok, so i just simply told her physically i was fine but not emotionally, then we had a short talk.
I thank God that i have boss like this and workmate that will care for me.

Dear father, i thank you for telling me all this in your timing. i pray that i will not let go of this unfailing love ever again, i will hold on to it no matter what it takes for me to return to it. The journey is long and hard, but i will try if i fall please pick me up and lead me again. This week mark the new phase of my walk. I pray that God you will be with me.

mr big bad wolf

2008-07-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

Wonder why this entry title is Mr big bad wolf? Well i am officially known as the big bad wolf from now on, so girls please stay away from me. Today is a heart breaking day for me. i cried from 330 onward all the way till 515 in the office. The reason that i cried was because i hurt myself so badly and as a result i hurt the people that love me without me knowing.

i don't wish to make you mad anymore, i don't wish to hid anything from you anymore. As i learn to trust you i will slowly open up my thoughts to you. I want to be transparent before you or the people i trust. All this while i had never trusted anyone so greatly until to an extent where i just be transparent to the person. I am willing to try. I know i am weak but help me.

Dear father in heaven, as i open up my heart to so many hurts and wounds may You heal them and fix them, as i cry may You hear my cry from heaven. Father i known i have sinned against You and against heaven, i am no longer worthy to be call Your son anymore, may You just forgive me as i come to true repentances. As i bow my knees and kneel before You The Great Almighty God, may You just come and cleanse me of my sins, create in me a new heart that will seek Your will before mine, a heart that will burn for You. Come Lord, guide me. I NEED YOUR HELP FATHER!!!

breaking point?

2008-07-02T14:27:00.000+08:00

Isaiah:58 1 -7
True Fasting
1 "Shout it aloud, do not hold back.
Raise your voice like a trumpet.
Declare to my people their rebellion
and to the house of Jacob their sins.

2 For day after day they seek me out;
they seem eager to know my ways,
as if they were a nation that does what is right
and has not forsaken the commands of its God.
They ask me for just decisions
and seem eager for God to come near them.

3 'Why have we fasted,' they say,
'and you have not seen it?
Why have we humbled ourselves,
and you have not noticed?'
"Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please
and exploit all your workers.

4 Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife,
and in striking each other with wicked fists.
You cannot fast as you do today
and expect your voice to be heard on high.

5 Is this the kind of fast I have chosen,
only a day for a man to humble himself?
Is it only for bowing one's head like a reed
and for lying on sackcloth and ashes?
Is that what you call a fast,
a day acceptable to the LORD ?

6 "Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen:
to loose the chains of injustice
and untie the cords of the yoke,
to set the oppressed free
and break every yoke?

7 Is it not to share your food with the hungry
and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter—
when you see the naked, to clothe him,
and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?

This is today's 40 day prayer guide.
Inside it wrote clearly that rebellion is subtle sin
What is really mean by it? Well i admit i am rebellious, i can worship God, serve His people or even be a leader, but deep within me i am shallow, not God fearing. This is God is showing to me lately. People who are concern about me, i have been wrestling with God since last week when i ask God to open up my wounds, take me back to face it. God show me alot of ugly wound that didn't not heal. To everyone around. Yes i am indeed hurt, i am tired of hiding, i am need your prayer. I really don't know who read my blog anymore. i will be fine, it take time. Anyway this week also has been a tiring week yet again, some of you might know that i got involve in a relationship which was suppose to end. Cause i was unsure of what i want, but now when i am more or less certain the news was broke to me that she is unsure of things now. During this i realize how selfish, irresponsible and the reason why i can't trust people around me easily. Well i know i want to change not her sake but for God sake. I am really hurt, i am not fine, just hope that everyone will stop asking if i am fine. All i can say is i will try to be. Well i don't even noe what am i rattling about.

Dear Father in heaven,
i come before you with a broken heart, you have search my heart, you know the desire of my heart. Will you just free me from this foul spirit of false piety. I humbly ask that you come and do a heart transformation, help me to change my weakness to my strength, turn me from a selfish irresponsible and protective person to a self less, responsible and secure person in Christ. Will you come and help me. I cry out to you God. I will not let You go until You have bless me and transform me, so please just come Father. i am tired, will you just lift me up.

Isaiah 58

2008-07-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

Isaiah 58
Your Prayers Won't Get Off the Ground
1-3 "Shout! A full-throated shout! Hold nothing back—a trumpet-blast shout!
Tell my people what's wrong with their lives,
face my family Jacob with their sins!
They're busy, busy, busy at worship,
and love studying all about me.
To all appearances they're a nation of right-living people—
law-abiding, God-honoring.
They ask me, 'What's the right thing to do?'
and love having me on their side.
But they also complain,
'Why do we fast and you don't look our way?
Why do we humble ourselves and you don't even notice?'

3-5"Well, here's why:

"The bottom line on your 'fast days' is profit.
You drive your employees much too hard.
You fast, but at the same time you bicker and fight.
You fast, but you swing a mean fist.
The kind of fasting you do
won't get your prayers off the ground.
Do you think this is the kind of fast day I'm after:
a day to show off humility?
To put on a pious long face
and parade around solemnly in black?
Do you call that fasting,
a fast day that I, God, would like?

6-9"This is the kind of fast day I'm after:
to break the chains of injustice,
get rid of exploitation in the workplace,
free the oppressed,
cancel debts.
What I'm interested in seeing you do is:
sharing your food with the hungry,
inviting the homeless poor into your homes,
putting clothes on the shivering ill-clad,
being available to your own families.
Do this and the lights will turn on,
and your lives will turn around at once.
Your righteousness will pave your way.
The God of glory will secure your passage.
Then when you pray, God will answer.
You'll call out for help and I'll say, 'Here I am.'
A Full Life in the Emptiest of Places
9-12"If you get rid of unfair practices,
quit blaming victims,
quit gossiping about other people's sins,
If you are generous with the hungry
and start giving yourselves to the down-and-out,
Your lives will begin to glow in the darkness,
your shadowed lives will be bathed in sunlight.
I will always show you where to go.
I'll give you a full life in the emptiest of places—
firm muscles, strong bones.
You'll be like a well-watered garden,
a gurgling spring that never runs dry.
You'll use the old rubble of past lives to build anew,
rebuild the foundations from out of your past.
You'll be known as those who can fix anything,
restore old ruins, rebuild and renovate,
make the community livable again.

13-14"If you watch your step on the Sabbath
and don't use my holy day for personal advantage,
If you treat the Sabbath as a day of joy,
God's holy day as a celebration,
If you honor it by refusing 'business as usual,'
making money, running here and there—
Then you'll be free to enjoy God!
Oh, I'll make you ride high and soar above it all.
I'll make you feast on the inheritance of your ancestor Jacob."
Yes! God says so!

Dear God will you just help me to seek your light and your will before everything that my heart deserve as i belong to You. I pray that i will be able to use my past to rebuild a greater foundation in Your name. I also pray that i will grow from selfish to self less. Please help me God, it is hard but i will choose to rejoice for everything that happen. It may be hard at times me to praise You, but God please be always so faithful to me that whenever that happen you will give me a new reason to praise you yet again. I miss you God.

P.S. i will try to update my blog more often. Just thinking where to start off from.

2008-03-28T15:37:00.000+08:00

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back in action

2008-02-02T22:04:00.001+08:00

yoz yoz peepz. i am back in action again, back to post after this sudden long break. Well things has been well for me, i guess. Guess what peeps yoshi is here, my car, hahaha, ya ya i finally got my car. picture to be update soon. any one wanna donate to love yoshi fund? hahaha, life have been good so far for 2008.
Going to ORD soon le, time to move very fast, just feel like yesterday i only enlisted into army. to be continue...

happy birthday to me!!!

2007-10-01T21:18:00.001+08:00

well guys birthday just pass. i am old le. got nothing much to talk about my birthday, or should i say nothing much happen though. The only important thing that happen was baptism. (a video will be up soon) well it was on last fri my actual day. nothing much to say la. a picture paint a thousand words. picture coming soon. Oh did i mention about the cookie jolene bake for me?!?!?!?!?. i was so touch that someone actually bake something for me. awwwww. haha well been long la, since i receive handmade cookie for my birthday. Love it!!! and to all who wish me happy birthday, THANK YOU!!!!

boo!!! >.<

2007-09-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

First things first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LENNEL, KELVIN AND CHIWERN!!! HOPE YOU GUYS HAD A WONDERFUL BIRHTDAY TODAY!

Well once again after sometime the reality of singlehood kicks in on me again. BOO!!! BOO!!! just as the matter of fact to all this idea of being single is good!!! i agree nothing less, just that at time when you miss someone and yet reality tells you that you are all alone it just sucks. And above that, having the f*****g (censor due to age limit in my blog) feeling of losing contact if even worse! :( i am just a mere creation by God in this dark and evil world of he.who.shall.not.be.named at time i just don't know what should i do and who should i listen to. yes! i do struggle with with own leader, unlike others who will obey faithfully. At times i feel like i am like a creature locked up in a cage being tamed by someone. grrrrrrhhhhh!!!!! I really don't know am i right about the path i choose. Where are do my feeling lies??? hello??? you there??? feelings??? hello!!!. Only God will answer this call or question of mine. I guess it can be way beyond what my leader can provide for me. God come!!!! i am just a mere creation of yours!!! I need your way, your advice!!!

Something that i read
"Our heavenly Father never takes anything from His children unless He means to give them something better" - By George Macdonald.

Is it true then God really will do that?
God took away her but gave me singlehood, loneliness. God gave me all this to build me up stronger. He took one relationship away but gave me many much more valuables one.

NOTE!!!! MY BAPTISM COMING UP!!! IT IS ON THE 28TH SEP AT BUKIT MERAH!!! PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU ARE COMING!!! THANK

cut from the past(Edited)

2007-09-12T15:26:00.000+08:00

birthday wishlist -- Updated

1. Optimus Prime leader class -- (got it myself)
2. New Ipod!!! haha
3. 08 camero bumblebee -- (got it myself)
4. macbook skin
5. New shirts --(http://www.threadless.com/product/990/Teddy_Band)
6. New surf short -- (my sister got for me)
7. Able to go out with her like the past --(no idea when but i believe God)
8. Baptism -- (On The way)
9. My hamster to get well --(Thank God)
10. Family salvation --(on the way!!!)
11. Takaratomy Megatron leader class --(I think my cell getting for me)
12. Takaratomy Final battle Jazz delxue class
13. Hasbro recuse Ratchet

Trying out something! haha!!
Actually guys and girls who is reading this entry. i really don't know what i want though. All i want is a surprise ba, doesn't matter what you all give. :)
Anyway Baptism is on the 28/09 at tct do come!!!

Still

2007-09-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

Jesus Calms the Storm
23Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Lord, save us! We're going to drown!"

26He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.

27The men were amazed and asked, "What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!"

thank you dawnie for reminding me about staying still before God in the coming storm, cause God can calm the storm all i have to do is believe in Him!

pic of my ankle

2007-09-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

look at the difference between the two ankle!!!
if you wondering whose legs are those.It is mine!!!

speechless

2007-09-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

What is happening recently??? everyone around is either sick, injure or going thru a down time. As for me i am injure and i guess i am going thru a down time too. Life have been ok since after the six months, but it wouldn't be as easy as it seem. During the leader's retreat, i saw her. If you guys wonder why am i so moodless on that day. God and everyone who is reading this. I admit i still miss her. I felt lost at what am i suppose to do next. Don't even know which is the route i should take. Don't even know how am i suppose to write this entry.

ps: dennis if you are reading this just want to let you know i really wish to talk to her again. it is like she disappear from my circle again.

I HATE IT!!!

Stop Appearing and disappearing!!!

OUCH!!!

2007-09-10T15:56:00.000+08:00

ouch!!! i sprained my ankle for many who know. ya, Due to playing basketball. Now i am officially on 5 days mc, so i will be stuck at home feeling so helpless, unable to move around. The sprain was quite bad, both side of my left ankle swell, that mean i can't have any weight or exert any force on my ankle. :(
Happy birthday emmanuel!!!

In the early saturaday morning rain~~~(edited)

2007-09-08T07:40:00.000+08:00

Let's just see. What have i been up to lately? Due to laziness and unwillingness i hasn't been blogging much. Here i am, sitting inside our favorite daniel samuel hall in an early saturday monrning, well it is pretty early for me, it is 0741hr now and it is raining outside.
First day of leader's retreat nothing much happen though, but during session, when dennis preach,the theme of his sermon was Strength, his points were:
seek God - not just in trouble times but at all times, have we not forget about God's patients and goodness towards us. Well for many of us we only seek God in trouble times or even when only we are at the edge. At least for myself that was the case. and i repent about it.
I forgot about his second point, the third point was to press on - no matter your situation are.
How many times have we give up half way on our members or even the things we do in our daily life, be it in the area of our work, studies, national services. When things seem to be the hardest it is when we need to seek God more. By not just praying to God or listening to Him, also to seek the leader God has place in our life.

i just want to end this blog by giving everyone *including sisters too a verse from
the bible: James 1:2 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds"

being alone suck big time!!!

2007-08-30T19:48:00.001+08:00

if everyone wonder why i alway hate being alone, and you all tell me at least i still got my family. well think again. here is some of the reason

1. going back to an empty home everyday
2. don't really get to see my parent at all
3. having a sister that seldom come home
4. my sleep time is mostly their work time
5. their sleep time mostly my work time
6. spending 70% of my childhood alone at home!!!

enough said!!! well people think again. if your life was like this would you still like to be always alone? what is the point for me to be there for everyone when they need me. Why must i make myself free for all. don't get it!!! damn this earthly world that everything is about the rat race!!! will there be someone out there that will understand how i feel??? :'(

hey there delilah

2007-08-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

Am i bumblebee or Optimus???

2007-08-19T00:50:00.001+08:00

I AM
69%
BUMBLEBEE Take the Transformers Quiz

I AM
68%
OPTIMUS PRIME Take the Transformers Quiz

so which one am i? am i bumble prime? or optimus bee? haha. up to you guys to decide

Gazing at the stars and looking back

2007-08-12T09:44:00.000+08:00

The night sky is so beautiful and peaceful. Was alone at with my dog at duty so i took some time to gaze at the marvelous sky, though it wasn't that nice but it was quiet and peaceful. I thank God for the letting me have the chance everytime when i am doing my duty to just lie on the road and gaze at the star and just enjoy the moment with Him. :)

Today was kind of a day of many flashback for me. It was 3 years ago that i went out with this girl at PS to watch twin effect 2. Still remember that i held her hand in the theater, the show wasn't that nice. Her hands were cold so i held her hand. We had pastamania for lunch. Nothing spectacular happen though, it was just like a normal date. I send her home after the movie, not long after we separate, i called her to ask her, if she would be my girlfriend. She agreed, i was jumping up and down under her block. So our journey began, we been thru many ups and downs. Our journey ended just like 6 months ago. She is happier now, as far as i know. I really want to Thank God for blessing me with her for the past years, and many more to come as friends? Well i will never know what will happen in the future, but i do know what mistakes i made as a boyfriend in the past, will not commit to those silly and selfish mistake again. :)

well thinking back wasn't that painful for me anymore, knowing that God is with me listening to my thoughts, understanding me, helping me.

I LOVE YOU FATHER!!!

Day of His Power!

2007-08-09T13:07:00.000+08:00

this picture was taken at around 645. the place still look empty. i was sitting on the balcony so bless with the bird's eye view even though was kind of scary to look down.

basically the conference was good. everyone who went got a stone from the conference, it represent the 12 stone our forefather place.

incapable me

2007-08-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

nothing much need to be said...

yeeee!!! boing boing

2007-08-08T12:52:00.000+08:00

i miss the days i spent playing basketball into the night.
i miss the feeling of being in the air for that instant.
i miss the sound of the ball going thru the hoop.
i miss the adrenaline rush coming to me when it is time for fastbreak.
i miss the trust that the team builds together.

i miss the game!!! even though i played with Ps william, dennis, yinghan and the some other guys but the feeling was different. i felt lost, didn't know what i was suppose to do, so helpless. i spoilt my basketball shoe last sat while playing. it was quite an old pair of shoe i think it was with me for 4 years. well it is a sign for me to move on, which means Time For New Shoe!!! any sponsor???

basketball aside.

yesterday night while i was on duty, i look up at the night sky, saw this cloud that look like a orange coloured mashmallow. then i ask myself, did i really lose 1 person that i loved? and gain none? 6 months ago. My answer? No. if i didn't lose her, i might just lose myself. well, this 6 months was quite a fruitful period of time. i started to grow closer to my spiritual brothers, i got to know more people, did things i never thought i would do.
all i can say is thank you my spiritual family for being there when i needed you guys. ya this period of time i got to know people that never in my life i thought i will talk to. they are jolene, dawn, shi nuan, shuana mostly people from pam chong side. :)

life's been good. i guess i am ready to walk the road of singlehood till God provide :)

will you spend some time with me??? or say you love me???

2007-08-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

Your Name:zach
Total A - Words of Affirmation: 8
Total B - Quality Time: 10
Total C - Receiving Gifts: 3
Total D - Acts of Service: 3
Total E - Physical Touch: 6

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Your highest score indicates your primary love language. Your second highest score indicates your secondary love language. If two scores are identical, you are bilingual (you have two primary love languages). If the scores of your primary language and your secondary language are close (for example, 10 and 9 respectively), it indicates both are important to you. Whatever your spouse does to express love in either of these languages will get emotional points with you. The highest score for any one love language is 12.

Having a clear picture of your primary and secondary love languages will explain much of your past behavior. Think back over the past and ask yourself, "What have I most often requested from my spouse?" Chances are your answer will lie within the scope of your primary and secondary love languages. You have been requesting that which would meet your deepest need for emotional love. Your requests, however, might have come across as nagging or criticizing and thus driven your spouse away.

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FOP 07

2007-08-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

today was on mc. kinda spent the whole monday at home doing some comic strips from the picture i had from children camp. i send a copy to some people out there. hope it is nice for the rest who want it please let me know. thank

well yesterday was kinda busy day for me, got up quite early cause i need to meet joe's kids to get the cake for joe. well the surpise didn't really go that well, but at least joe was shock by what we gave him. well, he is a happy man now. haha, please take care of your new bag!!! if you guys wonder what bag was it here it is.

well, after service was congre, nothing much happen though. the guys stayed behind to have a game of dividend. before joe and i went to S.I.S to meet up with pam chong and her people for FOP. FOP was great!!! can't wait for next years one. it was pretty obvious what God is telling singapore or it is just me. is that we have to move out by faith into our own social circle and bless the people. :)

100K blessing

2007-08-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

dear brothers, if you are reading this. i think for me the 100K blessing taught me alot of things.

firstly, i learn to step out into the marketplace, and be known as a christian among my friends.

secondly, i learn how to move in faith. If you all remember before the thing started i told dennis that i think i am unable to finish it well look. Now i am on my way to finish the race. Thank God for his prompting i suppose.

thirdly, i learn to be "thick-skin" haha, in the sense that not being afraid of rejection from people around me.

word of encouragement for my brothers and all who is reading this entry.
let's run the race, and finish it. This is it, the end point for the leg of the race, FINISH IT. i have faith in God that all of us will be able to complete the 20 names, not just that but to see God's blessing coming true for everyone that we have blessed. :). Thank you Lord!!!

Wishlist for bday???

2007-07-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

what i wish for my birthday???
1. To be able to have a cell of my own
2. Get baptism
3. Be focus
4. See that the people's blessing come true
5. Crumpler backpack(look below)

exterior view

interior view

nice right??? i love it!!!
Saw it on sun when i was out with the guys scouting for new bag.It cost $219!!! but i think i can get 10% discount so it will cost $200 *hint hint. hahaha joking guys.

what is more after the visit to crumpler store, we went to Zara and see what we manage to get joe to wear.

For those who do not know, joe never like to wear pink, he think it is gayish or girly. hahahha, well see!!! joe get some pink shirt it suit u. hahahhaa :P

peekture!!!

2007-07-29T10:23:00.000+08:00

well well i am back from my duty. yeah!!! miss quite alot of stuff yesterday, i miss the take the city walk, followed by family time with the guys and most importantly NDP preview. I did manage to bless dawn by giving her the NDP preview ticket according to her. Yesterday night was quite happening for me while i brought Carlo (my dog) for a walk. On my to meet my friend i happen to see snake lying on the ground motionless, actually wanted to take picture of it for you guys to see but was afraid that i might be attack by it. So ya, but as i continue my journey i come across two tinny weenie snail crossing my path, so i took pictures of it.

image might be abit blur, cause i was holding on to carlo.

Practically we did alot of crazy stuff yesterday night, to due certain reason i am unable to post the things online. Anyway while i was at my duty area i can hear the fireworks from the preview it lasted for quite awhile. Dawn hope you had a great time at the parade. ;)

Well as for the next picture i happen to come along while looking for some other pic so ya it is from my shirt if you guys notice.

Super mario!!!

that's all folk for today's dose of WOZ. BLEH!!! Until next time byeeee....

pics??? testing onli

2007-07-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

well as i promised that i will post picture here after i create my own watermark. ya this is a test pic below

Picture from the kids camp 07

sick & lazy

2007-07-25T14:00:00.000+08:00

wah, i just end one round of tedious duty today, it kinda start on last thur with a midnight duty followed by a fri evening duty. Sat was a half day for me, Sun 24hr duty, then Mon midnight duty and so on. Starting to fall sick again mainly due to the weather. oh ya as the previous entry i say that i will post pic online but ya. i am too lazy to edit it and post it. Nice weather to sleep though. So ya. byeee

hi i am back

2007-07-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

yoz peepz, i think i am back to my old old self. i should focus on wat i need to do. like kayaking, and sports. yeah.... feel good to be back. this will be a short entry cuz i need to rush off for duty later on. ya duty, u didn't hear me wrong. now i am in national service, serving the nation as what my church alway say, what a great way man. Bringing my dog out for a walk at midnight when the whole nation is sleeping. zzzzz. ya will be back again with pic and more rubbish from me.

testing testing

2007-07-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

peek a boo??? testing 1 2... test test